Oh my god, I have been suffering from insomnia ( falling asleep rather terribly). At last, I revealed those calamities in a row, and consulted my dear junior about it, oh my god. Simply he advised me as follows ; 【I must prepare it and at…

やれやれ、 本当に精神的に参ってきてる！ 言うまでもなく、これは例の公聴χに関することが原因だが……やれやれ。 公聴χ、博論、数学や論理の講義・演義、演習云々で、もはやフランス語とか研究室セミナーには時間が取れない、 やれやれだ。 本心を話せば、 …

Oh my god...... I have felt sick from last midnight....... I managed to attend the class in this morning......it’s my most favorite class ! However I feel, there is NO energy to attend classes of French today, oh my god..... I feel I’m goi…

Oh my god, I cannot fall asleep tonight ......actually recently I have had difficulty in falling asleep quickly, it’s extremely stressful, oh my god! To make matters worse, I have headache, feel a tightness in my chest and it’s hard to bre…

Oh good grief, a person said if one feel so sad and depressed by a separation, just because one has experienced euphoric sensations with him/her before the separation, oh my god. Generally it’s true to bereavements, but I think, though par…

Oh good grief, I have already resolved to keep studying math until I produce something achievement( here, probably, it means ‘publication’ )even though it’s trivial, and on the other hand, if I will be able to study at that group of my top…

やれやれ、 一つ前の記事にも書いたと思うが、 Ψ近、 どの講義でも、先生方は 試験の話をΨ三している。 特に、記号論理学の先生は、 彼は私の身分や事情を知り、単位は不要である、とよくご存知のはずなのに、 何故か、（講義あと質問が終わって帰り際に） …

Oh good grief, I have just decided several rules. I do not go to the student’s room unnecessarily, so that, I study in library.I make the classes a top priority as possible as I can.I do my best for the tests, practicing classes, and homew…

Oh good grief, as usual, romantic topics are talked except me, but recently teachers talk about the end of term tests. And unbelievably, I crave even if I could put these tests before my own public presentation of my doctor thesis, oh my g…

やれやれ、 とにかく一瞬でも多く安心感を感じて落ち着いているために、極力長い時間を図書館で過ごして（土日含めて24時間学校のどこかの図書館で過ごすことは、現状可能である）課題をやり、講義の教科書の熟読しよう思う。 Ψ近、講義や演義、友達や先生と…

やれやれ、 漠然と感じてはいたが、 今は、揺るぎない確信となっている ことがいくつかある。 まあ今χは、4点にまとめて吐いておく。 1.化学、物理学、そして幾人かの人たちを、 「大好き」なままで、 私が「消えていく」しかないということ。 化学には完全…

Oh my god, with the ‘duration’ of the nasty time, when will I totally crack up? Last night, there was a complimentary class, and I arrived early in the class room, then I was waiting opening textbooks........at first I tried to peruse the …

Oh good grief, nothing can be done about this nasty situation!Nasty is nasty! Concerning my doctor degree,besides several calamities in a row, so that, several promises have been violated, I was betrayed, and so on.Moreover I seem to have …

Disgusting is disgusting, oh my god! I seem to have extreme aversion to just being here and preparing the coming presentation, oh my god!I will violate the promise with “myself “ ; I should have promised that I would finish the presentatio…

Oh my god, I have entirely lost my concentration......I feel so disgusting just thinking about the public presentation of my doctor thesis in near future!Actually, recently, I feel happy and ‘relieved’ only when I attend the classes. Next …

やれやれ、 Baxterが、例の本の中で 以下のようにコメントしている、やれやれ。 “There are 'down-to-earth' physicists and chemists who reject lattice models as being unrealistic. In its most extreme form, their argument is that if a model can b…

細々と書いてきたこの日記ですが、 FC2のアプリがどうも不調続きでして、 FC2からHatenaへ引っ越しましたよ、 やれやれ。 「やれやれ…」と日々のΨ難、愚痴、主張、好きなことを自由に吐きつつ、 極たまにワインのテイスティングメモという感じなので、 私に…

The end of last year, I surely hoped after my graduation. 【If I would work as PD just after my graduation, there would be two types.】 1. change my field “a little”, but change the environment “drastically”( at least study abroad in NOT E…

やれやれ、 Ψ近の金曜日、母のススメで 倉橋ルイ子さんのライブに出かけてきた。 彼女の歌は、ほとんどが「バラード」と呼ばれる失恋に関する歌であり、 私の友達はよくご存知のように、 私は、「恋愛の概念」が「理解」 できていないようで、 親友曰く、 私…

Oh god grief, I have been thought as foreigner or one who had grown abroad for so many times, and recently it occurred again and again. 【Once again, I have grown in Japan, I have NOT studied abroad and my parents are completely Japanese!…

There will be tests, homework, and something to do ASAP in a row, oh good grief, as follows; tests : Symbolic(mathematical) logic, French grammar, Liner algebra Homework : Logic, The introduction of the basis of mathematics, infinitesimal …

【The calamity concerning the inferiority of “studying”】 When it comes to topics concerning mathematics in high school, it always recalls those traumatic days, oh my god! Oh my god, actually I had felt serious inferior complex about almos…

【The calamity concerning the inferiority of “language”】 Oh my god, as usual since my childhood, even these years, people often think me as foreign student because of my poor and odd language. I have serious difficulty in both ”meta and o…

Oh my god, I woke up from a nightmare after some interval. As my close friends know, needless to say, it was realistic one concerning my traumatic past by ‘the Educators ‘ , oh my god. BTW, Recently I have often cared about my own situatio…

Oh good grief, I identify with the main theme of “Kira kira precure a la mode” . The last several topics and a background song make me think about various things. If they didn’t give me them, and I would totally ignorant of them? If they w…

Oh my god, recently I have got to know several people, and though they are NOT my friends but teachers and not so familiar, they have so kindly and gently helped and encouraged. However I sometimes fear their gentleness, oh my god....... C…

Oh good grief, recently, day by day, something strong convictions or feelings have been becoming in my mind. For example, it got to my conviction that the papers by Anderson have never inspired me to study it, but those results which he to…

Oh no, I have frequently been disturbed and distracted, and what is worth, discouraged. I have always obsessed with the serious fear how to ‘scrape by on’ just after next March, oh no. I’m extremely covetous of understanding the book and t…

Oh good grief, why have I been so depressed and deep in meditation just before the conference? Even though I always felt extremely nervous when I speak, I had always looking forward to it, and enjoyed every time. I feel so lonesome...... B…

Snap out of it, concentrate myself on what I adore and long, oh my god, however I have suffered and distracted by several problems concerning human relationships, oh no! For changing my mind, I put the old books in the cabinet and arranged…